CT Scan and Results are In...

I had the CT scan this morning.  So much less stressful the second time around when you know what to expect.  The technician didn't even bother to have me change out of my pants (trousers for my British friends, I kept those pair of pants on, thank you very much).  Instead, she just laid a blanket over me and I pulled my pants down to my thighs.

I just got a voice mail from the oncologist and he already has the results of the CT scan.  Apparently the masses have either completely disappeared or left scar tissue a few millimeters in length.  Therefore, it looks like no "chicken dinner" surgery will be necessary and instead I will just have surveillance for the next five years to make sure nothing returns.

I have to admit, I have listened to the voice mail 3 or 4 times trying to make sense of it.  It appears the race has been finished.  Chemo is done.  No additional surgery is required (well except to remove the port which is still chillin in my chest). The blood results are all clear.  Do I dare to say it?  It appears I am cancer free and can declare this adventure over.  It's really a surreal experience.  I feel as if I should get something tangible at the end, you know? Like how a pregnant woman gets a baby after all her work and toil.  In this case you get nothing, which is exactly what you want, but it's odd to celebrate the negative.  "Look at me!  I am back to where I was 5 months ago!"  Odd.  But, oh so invigorating.  It feels as if my life has been on pause for 4 months and suddenly the possibilities of wonderful things from birthdays and holidays to the mundane things such as oil changes and clogged-up toilets are in view again.

Forgive the stream of consciousness, I haven't had time to process it all yet.

I do want to thank everyone again for their support.  I know I haven't answered everyone who has sent their best and those to whom I have gotten back have had to wait longer than they should.  There are truly no words though to thank you.